Magnetic Resonance Imaging

Nobody has an MRI Scan for the hell of it.

So it is fair to say that the whole experience is not particularly pleasant. There are a number of reasons for this: you have to at least suspect that there is something wrong with you and the procedure is not the most comfortable thing you will ever do.

In my case I was having one because it was almost certain that I had had a Stroke. The medics were almost certain but wanted the final confirmation that only an MRI Scan could bring.

The whole concept of the MRI Scan got off to a poor start with me when it looked as if even the wait for one would mean a longer stay. I had come into hospital on the Thursday evening and by the early hours of Friday morning I had been admitted. It was clear, very early on, that I was not going home again until the Consultant had seen the results of the MRI, the CT scan I had had before admission not being enough. Of course this requirement came with the expectation that the next available slot would be sometime on the Monday.

On Friday, having almost prepared myself for a weekend sampling the delights of a diner, bed and breakfast stay curtesy of the NHS, I was somewhat taken aback to be informed just as afternoon visiting began that I could have my scan but it needed to be now. Having changed into the “Hospital Gown” I was given and put on my shoes and socks I waited. Within moments an orderly appeared who, after advising that I put a jacket on if I had one, told me he was to escort me to the scanner. Not knowing how long it would take, or even where it was in the hospital, I assumed it would be similar to the CT Scan, a few minutes so I told my partner that I would be OK and that she should wait for me. How wrong I was.

The MRI Scanner was not just in another part of the building but elsewhere on the site, it took ten minutes to walk there, where I was left in the hands of two technicians who where at least expecting me. After the shortest of waits, during which I filled in some minor paperwork, I was led into the scanner room. Once I had been asked to take off my shoes, but leave my socks on, and jacket I was told lie on my back on the gurney with my head toward the machine. After placing a tube in my hand, for emergencies, and plugs in my ears both technicians disappeared into the control room but not before warning me to lie very still and advising me that it would only take a couple of minutes. Following a slight jolt I began to enter the tube that is the MRI Scanner.

I don’t generally suffer from claustrophobia but the closeness of the walls, the antiseptic whiteness of the tube and the deep mechanical sound made me feel uneasy.

Suddenly I was returning to the much more comforting surroundings of the scanner room. Believing that it was done I began to sit up but was told to lie back down by the approaching technician who went on to explain that she needed to fit an apparatus to my head that would keep it absolutely still. The contraption that she set about constructing about my head felt like a close fitting Meccano helmet, only made of plastic: metal and the magnetism of the scanner not being compatible. The building of this device seemed to take forever and apparently required much delicate placement and replacement of large amounts of foam padding. Eventually the technician seemed satisfied and retreated back to the control room. Again I entered to tube but this time I took a feeling of being trapped in with me. To my relief, seconds later I was making the reverse journey, only for the technician to play some more with her feat of engineering, before ensuring that I still had the bleeper in my hand and leaving again. I was encased in the tube for a third time. This time the disembodied voice of one of the technicians filled my ears as she told me that I had to stay completely and totally still and that it would only be a few more minutes. Oh, and that I should try to relax. Easy for her to say!

The noise came back and all I could do was try to follow instructions. I was not sure if I was allowed to move my eyes so I looked straight ahead but that made everything feel even closer so I closed them which had the effect of making time elastic.

After what felt like hours but was in actual fact only a few minutes the noise faded and I began to slid out of the tube. This time both technicians appeared either side of my head and were deconstructing the plastic helmet. And they were smiling!

I was told to go the waiting area while they checked the results. So replacing my shoes and jacket, to cover the gap at the back of the gown that is exactly what I did. Before long one of the technicians reappeared to confirm that the results were fine and that I could go back to the ward. As I got up to leave she said that I was to wait until someone came to escort me back. So I waited. And waited. And waited. And waited.

Eventually another orderly arriveded to accompany me up to the ward, where I arrived just as the two hours of visiting time came to an end and my partner had to leave!

Then began the wait for the results. 

Hospital - Discharge

If I had been asleep I’m sure I would have been woken at midnight so my blood pressure (160over 126) could be taken.

And perhaps the same would have happened at 05:00 when when it was 172 over 118.

So began my second day in hospital as a Stroke Survivor. Not that there was much reason to believe it but I had a hope of being discharged today.

As I was awake with zero chance of that changing I went off in search of a shower.

After breakfast my blood pressure (109 over 116) was taken for what turned out to be the last time while I was in hospital.

I spoke to my partner, mid-morning, who told me that she was just about to leave for the airport to pick up the step-daughter and might not be back in time for afternoon visiting.

Not long after that call I received another visiter, a late middle aged man. Who after introduced himself as a Consultant told me that my MRI Scan showed that I had had a small Stroke.

It was not really news but further confirmation.

Standing at the foot of my bed this Consultant told me that he saw no reason why I should not go home today. When I asked what I what I was supposed to do he advised getting my blood pressure down to 140 over 85 and to keep it there: he even jotted it down on a page from my book. When I asked how I was to do that he suggested that I keep taking the tablets and buy a blood pressure monitor. I asked if I should see my doctor to which he answered, “I don’t see the need”. After reminding me that I was not to drive for a month he left.

A few minutes after the Consultant’s departure a nurse came in to tell me that he had signed me out but I would have to wait for my prescription to be fulfilled.

Alone again I phoned my partner with the good news. She was happy but had to tell me that she would definitely not make afternoon visiting as the step-daughter’s flight had been delayed but that she would get to the hospital as soon as possible.

The waiting began.

When the nurse eventually reappeared I asked for confirmation on some of what the Consultant had said. Telling me that she would have to check she left.

A few moments later the Consultant reappeared and he was angry. He made it very clear that he had made himself very clear and asked why was I questioning him. I tried to tell him that I was not questioning but that there were a few things that I was uncertain about. When I replied “my doctor” in response to his demand for specifics his was that I could if I wanted to but there really was no need.

Considering that he had been very clear that I needed to keep my blood pressure under control perhaps having a go at me was not the wisest of moves.

With the Consultant’s second egress I phoned my partner to tell her how frustrated I was feeling. The news from the airport was not great as it looked like they would not be back until the evening.
I was left no option but to wait for my drugs to be delivered.

So that’s what I did. Wait and wait and wait and wait.

Alone!

For a couple of hours nobody entered my room: not even the cleaners. The lunch delivery came and went: why would I have ordered food I was going home?

After the other patient’s plates had been cleared away I saw the young, blonde female doctor, from the day before, for the final time as she scuttled out of the ward, obviously trying but failing to not look in my direction.

The waiting got too much so I went in search of information. I eventually found a nurse and asked if she knew when I might leave. Her answer was that I would have to wait until my meds came up from the pharmacy. Asking when that might be all I got was a shrug and a comment about it “always being like this at weekends”.

I traipsed back to my room.

Throughout the afternoon I had more conversations with my partner and I think my frustration began to really show. I wanted, no needed, to know how I was going to get back from the hospital. She said that she hadn’t thought that far but she would see about it.

At about 3pm the nurse reappeared, I hoped baring gifts, but it was only bad news. The Consultant had forgotten to sign the prescription. He had been paged but if it was not signed and back to the pharmacy by 16:00 it was unlikely that it would be fulfilled, closing as it did at 5 o’clock. At ten minutes to four the nurse confirmed that it had been signed.

My partner phoned with the news that friends in the village were happy to pick me up. Unfortunately I still had now idea when I would be released. All I could do was phone them when and if I had my meds.

All I could do now was wait.

5 o’clock came and went, along with my hopes.

At twenty past five the nurse appeared with a sealed white paper bag: I was free.

Nobody talked me through the drugs that I was to take but then nor had there had been no attempt to discuss what had happened to me and what I could expect in the coming days weeks and months.

I phoned our friends and settled back to do what I had been doing all day.

I eventually left the hospital at 18:30 after forty-four and a half hours! 

Hospital - Inpatient

I was now a Stroke Survivor and to prove it I was in hospital.

It was 03:00 in the morning and I was alone in room B of the Stroke Ward looking at the lights of the city below. I had no pyjamas, I had been issued with toothbrush and toothpaste, so was sitting on the bed wondering what the hell was going on.

At a little after 04:00 a nurse gave me my pills, I never did find out what they were, and took my blood pressure (210 over 129). 

As the sun came up over the estuary in the distance I was disturbed again for my blood pressure (220 over 133) to be taken.

At 08:00 breakfast arrived followed by yet another measuring of my blood pressure (185 over 121).

After breakfast I decided that if it was true that I had had a Stroke I was going to face it head on so I took to Facebook.

“Reports of my demise have proved to be a trifle premature! It would appear that I suffered a minor Stroke in the early hours of Sunday morning. I have received treatment at XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX and as long as I keep taking the tablets and live the life of a hermit then I should be around for many more years yet!”

Mid-morning saw the arrival of the Consultant with the usual entourage. After introducing herself she expressed the belief that I had had a Stroke but to be sure she wanted an MRI (Magnetic Resonance Imaging) Scan. I would not be discharged until she had seen the results and as it was unlikely I could be fitted in before Monday I should expect to be there for the weekend. Nodding at two doctors, a pretty blonde haired female and a bearded black male, at the front of her retinue the Consultant commented that they would be looking after me. Both vaguely nodded in my direction but no one looked to make any form of introduction which did not matter, as neither stepped inside my room again while I was an occupant.

Medical visitors continued to appear. As the Consultant was bringing her own visitation to an end the Speech Therapist arrived and stood to one side listening. With the room to ourselves she asked a few questions and I told her of the slight slurring. Her diagnosis was that my voice seemed generally fine and any slurring would probably fade, in time.

The rest of the morning was taken up with having: my blood pressure taken again (194 over 102); my room cleaned and lunch.

As I finished eating two Occupational Therapists appeared to make an assessment which consisted of escorting me, on either side, to the end of the ward, up half a flight of stairs and back. They told me it was a rarity to take the walk with someone without a limp and as such they saw no reason for further therapy.

For what felt like the first time that morning I was left alone with my thoughts.

Afternoon visiting was 2pm to 3:30 and I was looking forward to seeing Kate, who arrived on the dot, bearing gifts: my wash bag; pyjamas; and the laptop. However, before we could say more than hello, a nurse appeared to tell me that I had an appointment with the MRIA scanner at 2:30. Not the best of timing but it was better than waiting until Monday, this way there was a chance of getting out over the weekend.

I will deal with the scan in a later post but with having to be escorted to and from the scanner and the length of time it actually took visiting time was over by the time I returned to my room and my partner had to leave.

My blood pressure was taken yet again (188 over 126) and I tried to get some writing done but was not particularly successful. Other things on my mind I guess.

At around 5:00pm the Consultant appeared, alone, and sat on my bed. She was heading home for the weekend and she wanted to let me know the latest position. She still thought that I’d had a Stroke but the MRI Scan had not yet appeared but there was some hope that it would do so later in the day or possibly early on Saturday. She told me that if it did, and depending on what it said, she saw no reason why I shouldn’t go home over the weekend.

At 6:30pm Kate arrived for evening visiting with two pieces of news: the step-daughter was coming home and would arrive on Saturday; that she had rebooked our trip to see the step-daughter for exactly six weeks time. We had planned to travel to the Alps on the Sunday after I went into hospital. The doctor in A&E had not only confirmed my stroke but had also informed us that I would be barred from driving for a month and that flying was out for six weeks.

Neither piece of news was particularly welcome. The step-daughter rushing to the bedside was making more of it than it warranted, and re-booking the holiday for the earliest possible date seemed not to be taking it seriously enough. I’m sure it was unfair of me but I said as much to Kate, who was less than happy. My overriding feeling was that I had not been involved in any of it.

I completely failed to communicate to Kate just how confused, alone, scared, angry and emotionally drained I was, who left at 8:00pm with a heavy sense of tension between us, even though I had told her of the possibility of being discharged the next day, or perhaps because of it.

I changed into my pyjamas just in time for my Blood Pressure to be taken again (200 over 122).